Christmas!

I am so excited, one more day of work tomorrow and I fly home to Calgary on Sunday! I think I definitely need to time away to be with my family and friends and just get away from it all. I have been so busy with life that I just had the chance to do my Christmas shopping yesterday (and all finished in 2 hours, not bad). I normally love Christmas shopping and will spend quite a few days doing it, but this year there really has been no time. Next year I hope things will be a little more calm and less frenetic.

One new thing I am considering is naturopathic medical school to become an ND. It is a fascinating subject, but the big question is am I willing to put in the additional years of school? I am not sure yet, but will mull it over during the holidays. Sometimes you just need to think in a relaxed environment.

I am also so excited to see my baby niece again. It is so hard that she is in Cowtown and I am here. I can't believe she is 7 months old already! If I don't manage to get back on here before Christmas, I wish you all a very Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays and a very happy, healthy, prosperous, and pain-free new year!
xo

Update

It has been a while, so I thought I would add an update. It has been an up and down few weeks, having some great days and some pretty horrible ones. On my good days, I try to have as much fun as I can. On my bad days, things have been pretty rough to say the least. I think I have had a couple of cysts rupture over the past few weeks. Not a pleasant experience. I haven't been sleeping well either, most nights I am too sore to relax and sleep. I am really looking forward to Christmas, I miss my family like crazy out here, so I can't wait to go home and just enjoy the holidays.

Labor Pains and Boobs?

I am pretty sore today, have been having what I consider to be "end stage labor pain" type cramps. Not that I have ever been in labor, but that is what I imagine it would feel like. It is like your uterus is literally trying to turn itself inside out while simultaneously being stabbed with a sharp knife. Not so much fun. On a brighter note, today is my 5 year boobiversary of my implants. Even through all of this endo hell, I still have awesome boobs, lol. Happy Rememberance Day, and lest we forget.

Follow up....Next Year

So I can't get in for a follow up until January 12, 2009, so I am a little pissed. First, that is a long time for me to be off of the pill (I take it continuously), which I very much rely on for multiple reasons, including endo pain relief. Second, it is so far away that I can't even guarantee if she'll be able to feel the lesion or not. If she can't feel the lesion, I'll have to wait another 3 months to get back in again before booking surgery. If that is the case, I will be having surgery next summer or fall. I am supposed to have my other "work" done next summer, not endo surgery! Maybe I am just having a bad day, but it is just really frustrating when you are in a lot of pain and nobody seems to care.

I also saw a new plastic surgeon this week regarding a revision of my rhinoplasty and the insertion of a small malar implant (which I am still debating. I have received strong advice to do it and not do it by very knowledgeable people, so we will see.) I definitely want my nose redone to fix the middle of the bridge and further refine the tip a bit more. I want to get this done next summer, but it will depend on whether or not I get in for lap #3 on time or not. Waiting is not fun, time goes by so slowly when you are in chronic pain!

Doctor Appointment Today

Today I had another appointment with my endo specialist, and yes, the CT scan shows that the lesion is most likely endo. I will be looking at surgery probably in March. The good news is that the incision is likely going to be much smaller than I thought it would be 1-1.5 inches, plus the laparoscopy incisions, and can be done as a day surgery. Yay! Yes, surgery sucks, but I knew the surgery would be necessary, and this is the best possible outcome accepting that fact. So now my doctor wants me to go off the pill for a month or two so we can map the lesion, and then it is just a waiting game until I get in for surgery.

I am heading home tomorrow for Thanksgiving, it is a crazy 10-12 hour drive, but nothing that a lot of Starbucks can't help. I am so excited to go home for a visit- I have only seen my family once since I moved back to my current city in March. Happy Thanksgiving everyone! xox

Tough Day

Wow, today has been a very bad day in terms of pain. I feel like an ovary has just exploded or something. It is bad. I had an appointment this morning, and after I finished I went to the mall, and started to feel a bit crampy, so I decided to go back home. About 10 minutes later, my pain was getting really bad, and by the time I hit Broadway I was ready to pass out and throw up. I am really not sure how I managed to get home, all I really remember is taking pain killers and Gravol when I got home, and falling on my bed. I see my doctor on Wednesday, I just hope it never comes back like that again-I thought I was going to die.

Tummy Update

It's been a busy couple of weeks, and I am still in quite a bit of pain. My abdomen is constantly sore and crampy and I have sharp, stabbing pains where the lesion is. I makes it really hard to do everything that needs to be done because all I want to do is curl up in a ball and die. Dramatic, yes, but living with chronic pain is exhausting! I see my doctor in a couple of weeks, so hopefully she can do something to reduce the pain until my surgery. I can't believe we are almost through September already! It has gone by so fast! I am hoping to make it out home for Thanksgiving for a bit this year, so it will be good to get a way and just chill.